This is not especially well-written, but the content is
worth considering…
A life without complaints – it’s
something I never considered before. Had you asked me a week ago, I would have
said that it is not only impossible, but preposterous. A week ago, I would have
had a complaint to offer about people who think you can live complaint free. I
would have had a complaint for every second of the day. I would have justified
all of those complaints with the claim that life sucks, that life is a
punishment that we have to suffer through to get to the other side, that pain
is a person’s natural state of being. As you can imagine, I have not enjoyed a
great deal of mental health in my life.
Life is
certainly not without pain, suffering, and loss. Every one of us will have to
walk through fire at some point. But I was at the point of waking up angry –
angry that another day had come. In a world where so many feel fortunate to
have one more day and so many would give anything to have one more day with
those who have gone, I was dreading every step, laboring through every breath.
I looked to medicine to help with the pain and shortness of breath. I looked to
psychiatry to help with dysphoria and depression. I looked to God to help me
find purpose and fulfillment. What I never tried, was to look into my own mind
for the change that I needed.
So,
what changed? Did I have some sort of intense spiritual experience? Did I
survive a major trauma? Find a new method of therapy? Try the perfect diet?
Take a magical cocktail of psychotropic drugs? No. I simply stumbled across a
book title: A Complaint Free World. Before I had even started to read
the book, my perspective started to shift. I started to think of the possibility
of living complaint free. The book challenges us to go 21 days without
complaining, gossiping, or making sarcastic comments. Those of you who know me
well, know that I would have very little left to say. I started thinking about
all of the negative energy that I put out into the world and how much negative
energy I draw into my life. What if, even if it required a vow of silence, I
could spare the rest of the world my intensely negative thoughts and spread
positive energy instead?
Still
fairly certain that I could not have a complaint free day, let alone 21 days, I
shied away from the challenge. But I continued to read the book. I complained
about the book. I was sure that it was just a scam to sell stupid rubber wrist
bands (to be switched from one side to the other each time you complain). I was
sure that people who aren’t angry are dumb or ignorant of their surroundings.
The book made me downright cranky at first, but the idea kept creeping into my
mind. I had to let go of my anger about the wristbands when the author advises
the use of a coin for those who don’t want the wristband. I had to let go of my
connection between positivity and ignorance when the author addressed the ills
of the world and how a positive attitude can inspire action to resolve the
issues while a negative attitude accomplishes nothing. Then, I had to accept
the fact that I’m not that special. The author indicates that it takes most people
8-9 months to go 21 days complaint free. I have not cornered the market on
being surly and disgruntled. There is nothing that makes me less likely to
finish the challenge than any of the other grumpy Gussssesseses (I just realized
I have no idea how to pluralize ‘Gus’).
I have
decided to take the Complaint Free challenge and I find that my mood is already
changing after only two days. I have a St. Michael the Archangel medallion in
my pocket and every time I complain, gossip, or use sarcasm as a weapon, I move
it to the other pocket. It is simply an exercise in awareness. There is no
penalty for complaining, nor is there some carrot on a stick that I’ll never
reach. I simply try not to be negative and try to make myself aware of when I
am. I am learning to convert anticipation into excitement rather than dread. I
am learning to appreciate the unexpected and be flexible to change. I am
learning to see the good in people in spite of their flaws. I have a tendency
to view things as black and white. As soon as something has a negative quality,
it must be all bad. If something is less than perfect, then it’s all ruined.
Attempting not to complain has required me to see some shades of grey.
The
only downside of the challenge is that it has made me acutely aware of what a
Negative Nancy I have been in the past. I have also realized how many feelings
I must have hurt by making sarcastic comments or talking behind others’ backs.
I’m not proud of those parts of my personality. The good news is that the
Complaint Free challenge gives me a context in which to process those feelings.
I am not all bad because I have done hurtful things. I am just a person who has
done hurtful things. I’ve also done a lot of nice things. There is no point in
dwelling on the hurtful things when I can put that energy into not repeating
those behaviors. It’s more efficient to focus
on the nice things and use them as my guide.
I know
that I have only been doing this for a short time, but I really feel like a
powerful change is happening. I don’t leap out of bed ready to take on the day,
but I don’t feel that sense of dread in the mornings now. My face doesn’t feel
like it’s sliding off my skull under its own weight. It feels light. I’m
smiling more easily. My legs don’t feel quite as heavy. I have more patience
for people. Interactions with others don’t seem so uncomfortable and forced. I
feel like I can actually enjoy a conversation rather than pretend to enjoy it
while actually wishing it would end as soon as possible. If I can make this
much progress in two days, just imagine the change after 21.
I am
coming to grips with the fact that I may actually become a positive person. I
may start believing that life is a gift, something to be appreciated. I may
start enjoying my life and hoping that it goes on for a long time. Each new day
may start invigorating, rather than exhausting, me. I don’t really know this
new person, but I’m looking forward to getting there. I never would have done
this for myself, but the thought of contributing more hurt and negativity out
into the universe was more than I could bear. It’s selfish to make the whole
world the sounding board for all of my problems.
I
invite all of you to join this challenge. Just give it a go. It’s ok if you
never make it to 21 days. Simply becoming aware of what comes out of your mouth
is a huge start. There might be times when you think its ok to complain, go for
it. But ask yourself if it’s really necessary before you say it out loud. Take
some time to evaluate the situation and see if there’s really anything to
complain about before you just spew negativity. Let yourself experience the
positive energy that you attract when you choose to contribute positive energy
into the universal pool.